eCo-dependency

I have been silently pondering a comment left on my blog in response to rejecting the universe as a way to undermine the matrix and see the true reality. The comment asks if people do not create the matrix themselves as a way of security, or more specifically, if a disregard for time could be damaging to those relying on the matrix. I admit this comment puzzled me because it would make the most sense that one cannot see anything they are either not looking for, or don't want to see. It is as simple as turning off the TV when the subject matter is uncomfortable. America calls this freedom, most call it options, I call it ignorance. At the same time, if one is not trying to see or not see anything, what is their reality? If I am trying so hard to see reality what am I really seeing?

Could denying the perceived fabric of the universe be destructive for the individual? I know that when I first began to accept an alternative divinity beyond myself it caused me to break down, leaving me feeling insecure, alone, forsaken for I was no longer intimately connected to my higher power. I would like to say it is a phase, and that for those who make it through..., but the truth is this: When you are first exposed to the idea that what you know isn't the complete truth, and you let that idea occupy your thoughts, there is no turning back. One of two things will happen.
1) You accept what you have learned and embrace your new beliefs or
2) You spend your remaining days questioning your existence, never able to create answers, become a crack addict and die, godless and alone.

Of course this happens to only a select few.

Besides the blind comfort a person enjoys, what are the benefits of some people remaining in the dark? There is the obvious, 'well, maybe they won't get it wrong' answer. Then the more considerate 'then they won't hurt us because they get it wrong' answer.